Relationships!

Relationships are my life! Besides the fact that I am a wife, a mother to six, a daughter, a sister, a friend, etc. , I am simply a human being. And being a human being, relationships are an integral & foundational part of all of our lives. They are such a fundamental part of our existence. Relationships really are just part how we are made & how we work. This constant action, interaction & reaction of energies.

I LOVE that in this work, you will find some of the most powerful relationship support & educational resources available to you. Not to mention learning some of the most simple & practical, real-life skills to bless & benefit your relationships NOW.

It's pretty revealing about how important & universal this relationship dynamic -this constant natural action, interaction & reaction of energies- is in our lives, when you learn & come to understand that the same exact innate skills & natural ability development that apply for healthy & happy homes, are the same that apply for a healthy & happy inner home; the state of our emotional health & the health of our minds, our physical bodies & our spirits as well. Pretty beautiful how it all works!

Any & every relationship is a gift to you. Whether its with a spouse, your child or even your own body. Just remember, that your relationships are mirrors to you. But, they are also beautiful windows of opportunity as you gain this understanding & awareness.

Learn more about yourself. Get clear on who you are & what gifts you offer. That is where is starts. Then learn about who your loved ones are. You'll be so amazed at how the beauty naturally unfolds.

This quote I read yesterday is so perfect & was so timely for my writing this:

"The whole purpose of education is to turn mirrors into windows." Sydney J. Harris

Here is a GREAT relationship resources. This will benefit everyone. If you are single, there is a HUGE gift here especially for you! I can't say enough how beneficial this call is to all relationships though. Including parenting!

"Energy Profiling Love Stories, How to Create Your Own!"

Enjoy!

Part 2 - There is more....

Now, I have definitely felt my emotion through out this whole experience. And I have even felt a sense of acceptance at times & even a deep gratitude for the many, many beautiful Gifts given me in this experience.

But, I became aware of this kind of "nothingness" or "un-feelingness". It wasn't exactly a numbness like I had felt at times. It was just something, but nothing at the same time. I didn't know what this was telling me at the time, or at least it wasn't clear for me then. I did know that it did not feel good. I live my life by the way I feel within & this was really discomforting for me.

The other thing that was really concerning to me, was how I would get so triggered by things. I would feel such a sudden, deep & intense sense of mourning, like I had at the beginning. It almost seemed like I was regressing in my processing of this experience.

So, in following my heart, I asked my Heavenly Father what it was that I needed. And I was guided & provided with exactly what I needed next.

On June 14th, Carol Tuttle did her regular weekly call-in radio show, "Living Your Truth with Carol Tuttle". With the details being so perfectly orchestrated for me, I followed the guidance I was given & listened into this call. I came in right before Carol took a live call-in from a woman who had recently experienced the loss of two of her children & of her business.

As I sat there listening, I cried tears of acknowledgment & gratitude. I knew that this call & what Carol was saying to this woman, was also a gift for me.

When I got off this call, I let my hubby know I was going for a walk! In the stillness & quiet of the beautiful area that I live, I acknowledged to my Heavenly Father & to myself, "I'm feeling it. I am really feeling it!" I then simply asked, "What do I do now?".

I realize now, that for me, this was also acknowledgment that I was willing to move on. That I was willing to progress. It turns out, this was exactly what I needed.

After this experience, I have not had anymore of those intense emotional triggered moments. I was also given a gift, even that very night, to be conscious of the fact that I have come to the acceptance & even completion with this loss. I felt such a confirming feeling & even a peaceful strengthening within me when I acknowledged this was true. When I owned it.

Why would I have reservations on moving forward? I became aware that I was indeed holding onto the suffering of this experience. And it was getting really intense so I would listen!

Now, I've been given insight into the "why's" here. At some level, I believed I still needed to suffer! Feeling that it honors & values this life if I stay here? And if I move on, it doesn't? Like it makes the whole experience more valid if I suffer longer?

In being aware of these, I simply acknowledge that they are. I just felt the feelings there. And then, I simply told the truth about it.

Which leads me into my next blog...... Yep, there is more! Read the the 3rd & final part, (which truly is only the beginning!), "Tell the truth, the whole truth."

Part 1 - "I'm feel'in it!"

Part 1 - (just keep following...it gets better, I promise!)

In life & sometimes especially in this field of Energy Work, we think that we have to "chase" away our more uncomfortable emotions. Whether by using some energy clearing tool, by positive thinking, (although both do have their place), or by distracting ourselves from feeling, with the all too familiar thinking habits we all have created - unconsciously of course. Our minds have such a wonderful ability to keep us alive. To help us survive. The only thing is, that feeling our emotions is not going to kill us! Even though it may feel like it sometimes.

The last few months, I have experienced this reality very vividly. In March, I delivered my sixth child at only 16 weeks gestation. My precious little baby had passed away in my womb, only a day or so before, according to the indications observed on ultrasound by my OB-GYN. I don't think I can put into words the depth of grief I experienced in all this. As well as what my husband & our other 5 children did as well. (Not to mention grandma's & grandpa's, aunts, uncles, friends, & even my doctor, etc. We truly are all in this life experience together!)

The loss of a child through death or by any other means, whether that child is a centimeter long or a grown adult, is one of the most painful experiences any of us can experience here. And more than once, I wanted to just make the feelings, maybe even the whole experience go away. However, I knew, as I listened to my heart (as best I could), that as much as it hurt, I needed to feel it. And feel it & I guess, feel it some more -cause I sure have! I know, with all my heart, that it is by God's grace & His love for me, that I have been able to!

The Energy Therapy tool I have been trained & certified in, Calyco Healing, helped me in regards to taking care of the energetic needs in my physical body, but I knew I got to feel this one full out! No energy therapy tool can take away your experience for you. Nor if we really understood or could see the eternal perspective, would we want to. Experience is one of the main purpose we are here! (The benefits & blessings of which turn out to be even more beautiful than we could have ever imagined by the way! This I know. I have experienced this for myself many, many times through out my own experiences in life. )

It is an interesting thing...these emotions. One minute your fine, or even feeling numb & the next, you are wondering if you'll ever be okay!

I remember one day in particular when I just had to get out of the house & walk. When I left the house, I seriously wondered if I was ever going to be okay. If these feelings would ever go away!

I walked & cried & walked & cried. And walked & cried some more. And oh how I prayed!

The several weeks after this experience were just like that for me. But progressively, it has gotten better, as I have tried to accept this experience as fully as I could & truly feeling it as fully as possible, while praying all along the way. But remember....this is processes. There is more......(Read part 2!)

***Listen to Carol Tuttle's recorded call-in radio show, "Living Your Truth", from June 14th, entitled; "What to do when you have an emotional meltdown" Click here to listen now.

Or copy & paste this link to your browser:

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/CarolTuttle/2009/06/14/Living-Your-Truth-with-Carol-Tuttle

She takes a call from a woman who shares her own experience in loss. Carol provides some very simple & yet such powerfully helpful guidance, on living your truth, even when experiencing loss ~exactly what we are meant & perfectly created to do!!! Her guidance is so right on!